Distracted

     Guilt.  Eew.  The word leaves a terrible taste in my mouth.  The kind like after you smell something really disgusting, then feel the need to spit.  I hate that feeling.  Does anyone else have that feeling?  I have it often.  Odors are very important to me.  You can really tell alot about a person from their aroma.  Just sayin'. 
     Oh, dear!  I've strayed from the point.  (I was once labeled as "very distractable" by a dear friend.  She was the principal at the Christian school where I taught.  She did me a great favor by pointing that out!  For real!  I've really tried to reign that in!  Obviously, without much success.  It's actually one reason I deal with guilt.  Eew.  That word again.) 
     Anyway...  Wait!  One more thing about that!  I think distractable people should be prescribed one of those little tags that hangs on the rear view mirror.  Not for a better parking place, or anything, but just to sort of let people know what they're up against.  Of course, I guess that's profiling.  Great!  Now, I'm a profiler.  *sigh*  More guilt!  Being distractable is exhausting!  Just like guilt!
     Guilt has kept doors closed in my life that, I believe, God intended to swing open wide.  Praise that He deserved, I didn't give...because I was distracted by guilt.  I've felt guilty for just about anything you can imagine.  I've felt guilty for having a loving husband, while family members had abusive husbands.  I've felt guilty for being down.  I've felt guilty for feeling "up", because someone else was going through a hard time.  I've felt guilty over food.  I've felt guilty over clothes.  I've felt guilty over dirty dishes in the sink.  I've felt guilty for having healthy kids, while dear friends wept as their little ones left for Heaven.  And the list goes on and on!
     There is real guilt, and then there is a false sense of guilt.  Be very careful to know the difference!  One can be as condemning as the other!
     I'm going to say something that many who know me may be surprised to hear.  (You're waiting on some juicy confession, aren't you?  You devil!)  Here it is:  I am unapologetically moving on!  Am I changing God's Word or its work in my life?  No...but I am changing.  Do I still care what people think?  Yes...especially the ones I love...but I am more concerned with what God thinks.  Will I be running with a different crowd?  More than likely.  I'm ready to leave my comfort zone.  Has it been easy so far?  No, it's been brutal.  Do I think I've arrived?  No...I feel like I'm starting all over.  Am I still distractable?  Guilty as charged!  But, I am prayerfully hoping God will use that to His benefit. 

Phillipians 2:4 "Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others."